You, Over There

AHHHHH. I have not blogged in quite a long while. Lots has been hitting the fan, and somethings have good alright. Lots of boy troubles, some life troubles and so good things, like Bryan moving to BC. That's always nice. So recently i started talking to Brad, my old grade 6 date. Haha, grade 6...how cute, I know. He was looking good these days, and so therefore I made friendly banter and found out he was very in touch with his "Chinese-ness" and Buddhism, which really caught my attention. Last Friday, it was a beautiful day and I decided a walk was in order, I was talking to Brad on the net and so I invited him for a walk. We met up, we talked (although he isn't the talker) and he walked me home. That night was semi, and he had planned on going with someone, but turns out he didn't know somethings about him which...were important. But he came anyway! We had made plans already to hang out on Sat. and so we did that. It was fun, he gave me a cool Chinese statue and such. So the short and short of this is, he likes/liked me. I am not clear, but we spent a lot of this passed week together. He sends a lot of mixed messages, its all so messed, he's messing with me. BAH.  He's sort of a jerk, and I feel really nervous around him, I know it's not an ideal feeling, but I get drawn to people like that for some odd reason...

Advice...